When GOD Became a Man…

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When GOD Became a Man

So who’s really to blame 

TRU EARTHs

broken heart?…

It would be easy to

blame the GOD

but

at the end of the day

the GOD 

is a 

man

I saw that today

funny how 

when

TRUTH is revealed

the light that once 

blinded me 

ceases to exist

funny how

what was once

looked at as

so DIVINE

reveals itself 

to be 

no more 

than

a

man

No longer

will I ever again

look 4 GOD

outside 

of me

GOD is within me

GOD came 

through me… 

My UNDERSTANDING 

will be 

the 

GOD 

they all 

seek to be

KNOWLEDGE OF SELF

was and still is

the greatest of all the gifts

the GODS

have given to me…

GOD is in ME

GOD came 

Through ME

MY UNDERSTANDING

will truly be

the 

GOD

they all seek 

to be… 

No more 

will I be

the EARTH that

they walk on 

like the concrete

4 my UNDERSTANDING

I’ll be the Ol’ EARTH 

that he needs 

me to be

My gifts from the GODS

are now his

HE will always know

who HE is

GOD is in ME

GOD came through ME

MY UNDERSTANDING

is 

THE GOD

they all seek 

to be…

Building With TRU…

Jan 29, 2013

I’m nervous as hell right now.

Today me and the GOD are suppose

to talk today…

It’s going to take everything in me not to break down and be weak

it’s gonna take a lot for me to stay focus with my words

and my thoughts

hey…

the GOD is sexy as hell…lol…

yeah, this is definitely not going to be easy.

9:13am

I just finished my classes for the day

Ancient Egypt (Kemet) 

and

History of 

African American Women

I was calm while I was in class

that’s what the classroom/school

in general does for me – 

school is definitely my sanctuary

but

now

my nerves are acting up again

in less than 20 minutes

me and the GOD

will have the conversation 

that we need to have:

either we move forward 

together

or

move on 

by 

myself… 

this is the hardest thing

that I have ever 

had to do 

in my life

and I’m a mom

so that’s saying something…

so, 

here’s to the 

ReBirth 

of 

TRU EARTH…

2:15 pm

January 30

12: oo am

People TRUly are something…

so 

me and the GOD had our conversation and honestly…

I can’t even refer to him as that anymore. 

At the end of the day – 

he played the hell out of me. 

What’s messed up is the fact that he does love me – but – 

apparently, he can’t be with someone doing the same thing that he is.

meaning

right now, I’m a single mom

in college

just starting my junior year

at the moment

yes 

I am struggling – but – I’m handling things. 

I’m a sociology major

with a minor in early childhood education

my motto

get them young 

and the possibilities are endless

I’m very involved on campus – 

all I do is help who ever needs it

He is also a college student

also starting his junior year

he has projects that he’s working on

and

so do I

our

goals in life are the same

  but 

I guess when he SEEs me 

all he SEEs are my struggles

not my potential

which is sad because when I looked at him 

saw his potential

and wanted to help him as much as I could

that’s the

MOTHER

and

PROTECTOR

in me.

His woman – 

got her education 

and 

now 

happily plays around in the DEVILs DEN.

go figure

one who proclaims that HE is a GOD

has a women 

whose job is

contributing to the destruction of our

community

with the negative images and stereotypes that we

continuously

SEE and HEAR

in the media

MONEY

he chose the money and the woman

and turned his back on the EARTH –

he had the nerve to try to make it seem like

I’m not on her level

when in reality –

SHE never has been and never will be on MY LEVEL

I’m developing a non-profit

community outreach organization

I’m developing a college level course

that is designed to change the way future teachers are

trained and more

importantly forces them to address their own personal

biases before

they bring their negative energy into the classroom 

my mentor is training me to take over her job as the grant

writer for

the education program that I am a part of at school

I’m about my people

I’m about changing the lives of my people

he knew these things about me 

I’m not materialistic

If I could stay in school for the rest of my life 

I would

I love learning for the sake of learning

I am a student of LIFE… 

but

none of that mattered

yes all of these things about me drew him to me

but

at the end of the day

he had a choice to make

BE the GOD

that you are

with me

or live life as a man

with her…

MONEY MATTERS MORE TO HIM I GUESS…

Damn 

BLACK NATIONAL ANTHEM…

LIFT EV’RY VOICE AND SING

Also known as “The Black National Anthem”

By James Weldon Johnson

Lift ev’ry voice and sing,

Till earth and heaven ring.

Ring with the harmonies of Liberty;

Let our rejoicing rise,

High as the list’ning skies,

Let it resound loud as the rolling sea.

Sing a song full of the faith that the dark past has taught us,

Sing a song full of the hope that the present has brought us;

Facing the rising sun of our new day begun,

Let us march on till victory is won.

Stony the road we trod,

Bitter the chast’ning rod,

Felt in the days when hope unborn had died;

Yet with a steady beat,

Have not our weary feet,

Come to the place for which our fathers sighed?

We have come over a way that with tears has been watered,

We have come, treading our path through the blood of the slaughtered,

Out from the gloomy past,

Till now we stand at last

Where the white gleam of our bright star is cast.

GOD of our weary years,

GOD of our silent tears,

Thou who has brought us thus far on the way;

Thou who has by Thy might,

Led us into the light,

Keep us forever in the path, we pray.

Lest our feet stray from the places, our GOD, where we met Thee,

Lest our hearts, drunk with the wine of the world, we forget Thee,

Shadowed beneath thy hand,

May we forever stand,

TRUE to our GOD,

TRUE to our native land.

SEEing…

 

SEEing

The day –

already off to a bad day

I know it’s due to

my troubled heart

So scared of SEEing

the GODs face –

 

Eyes will still smile

When HE SEEs me

 

My spirit, my soul

Will still yearn

For one more hug

One more touch

Consequences of a

Forbidden LOVE

 

Now I SEE

that HE

Never saw my TRUE worth

TRUE GODS do not

DESTROY the EARTH

 

So scared of SEEing

The man’s face…