WHY SILENCE THE TRUth?…

at this stage of my 

LIFE

i’m supposed to be happy

EYE

have a beautiful

SUN

i’m doing excellent in school

i’m viewed as a

LEADER

people tell me that

EYE 

inspire them

that 

EYE 

will do great things for our people

i’m applauded for being vocal

being an advocate

but 

that’s only among those who 

am

not

close

to

my 

family

my friends

my others…

i

talk

too

much

i

think

i

know

it

all

or

like

i

was

just

told

i

can

blow

dust

on

how

many

times

i’ve

heard

this

.

this

from

an

elder

one

who

should

applaud

my

hunger

for

knowledge

wisdom

understanding

my

hunger

to

build

he

who

once

called

himself

god

but

another

one

who

is

now

just

a

man

so

explain

to

me

what

kind

of

man

wants

a

woman

with

no

conversation

no

ideas

no

opinions

no

confidence

no

self

expression

no 

knowledge

no voice?

and now 

i ask myself

as i write 

 from

my

lower

self

what

is

wrong

with

me

that

i

keep

running

into

the

same

shit?

they

all

want

me

silent

all

except

ONE

but

we

can’t

be

together

maybe

that’s

why

HEs

different

because 

as

much

as

HE

loves

me

and

EYE

LOVE

HIM

WE

can’t

BE

.

if

things 

were

different

would

he

want

me

silent

too

?

there

are

so

many

words

in my head

dying to get out.

years and years of ideas, arguments, conversations, points of views 

unspoken

TRUths

millions and millions of words

stored in my head

actively flowing

as

i

go

through

my

days

and

nights

and

weeks

and

months

and

years

.

only

ONE

.

only

ONE

.

it

is

the

lonliest

feeling

in

the

world

when you have something to say

and

no

one

around

you

cares to hear it.

lonely

having

words

flowing

through

my

mind

and

no

physical

outlet

except

for

the

classroom

except

for

ONE

.

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