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1st Annual Hip-Hop History Month Celebration: Elements of Culture Hip-Hop Educational Summit

HIP-HOP EDUCATIONAL SUMMIT

On Friday November 8, ClassAction Student Group is hosting the

1st Annual Hip-Hop History Month Celebration: Elements of Culture Hip-Hop Educational Summit

at Lehman College.

This is a free event open to the entire Lehman College Community and local high school students.

On-Line registration is available:

http://1stannualhiphopsummit2013.wordpress.com/

Hidden Warfare…

Bi-polar

Schizophrenia

Disorders

Hidden within a family

Secret weapons of attack

Stabbed in the back…

When I cried out for help

I was told I was crazy

It was my fault

I provoked him

My Brother

Same mother

Different father

I’m her first born

He’s their first born

The rest is theirstory…

Kicked out of the family portrait at the age of fourteen

Struggled, survived, fought, got money, damn near died on these NYC streets

I’m a Vet, a Soldier

War was all I knew

And was still strong enough to stay TRU to myself

Gain Knowledge of Self

Started questioning myself…

What are you doing? Who are you fooling?

This is not you.

Everyone knows you don’t belong here… so leave –

And I left… Never looked back

Got on some Square shit

And it was cool –

Earning a paycheck. getting up every morning

Doing something positive

Plus

Once I caught on that this side

is no different than the other side

Only this side is legit –

I went in Hard!!!

I was a beast…

I called on all of the skills I acquired in the underworld

and brought them to the surface.

I was having a nice little run

and then my whole life changed…

I found out that I was pregnant

and my whole world crashed in on me.

Lost my job, lost my home,

my son’s Father was acting stupid at the time

in denial and shock – really… okay….

(He’s getting it together now… it was rocky though…smh…)

I had to move back in to my mother’s house.

That’s not her house.

It all started from then.

My Brother started stealing my things

and taking things of mine out of the house

without asking and I’d get upset.

I’d go to my mother and her husband and tell them that I don’t need this stress

I’m pregnant, please tell him to leave me alone.

My mother would say that

I can’t be like that; Say that I don’t want to be bothered.

I’d go through the whole people only treat you how you allow them to treat you speech

I’d say that I have a right to speak up and defend myself

I’d say that I don’t have to take my Brother’s mess…

to no avail.

You see my mother was just happy that she had a job

didn’t have to be in the house all day.

It was perfect for her to have me there.

Especially since her husband just had hip surgery.

She get up in the morning, get dressed and leave.

I’d get up behind her. Get washed up, go downstairs

see if there was any food

go to the supermarket

get some groceries

walk back to the house

go upstairs knocked on his door

he’d say come in

I’d ask him if he wanted me to make him something to eat

he’d be awake, just laying there

unable to go down the stairs

He’d say yes… and that’s when he’d finally get up and clean up

Somebody was there to take care of him… do what he couldn’t do for himself

And it was me

and that’s what ate at him

that it was me.

it wasn’t his daughter or his sons, not even his wife.

my mother…

it was me.

The one he hates

the one he despises

The one who stood tall and strong

in the face of the tyrant

the one he set the lowest of expectations for:

the future bum,

the future derelict

the one no man would ever want…

yep it was me

who was there

in his time of need

And I would pay for it.

Bi-polar

Schizophrenia

Disorders hidden within a family

Kept secrets used as tools

Silent whispers of

fuck you bitch

all out confrontations

three against one

mother, father and son

the holy trinity of dysfunction

Somebody please talk to him

Silence all around.

Two years of illness getting worst

arguments getting worst

to think someone I have always looked out for

to turn on me this way

But it’s not all of his fault

his mother

his father

knew the problem

they knew that Demons

were attacking the mind of their son

Such brilliance

such talent

such potential never allowed to manifest

because families keep secrets

For two years I suffered

no one wanted to get involved…

But karma’s a bitch

what goes around truly comes around

the cipher complete.

His attacks now are indiscriminate

fuck you nigga my father

fuck you bitch my mother

fuck all you mother fuckers…

you all are plotting against me

trying to stop me

attacking me

Now his rants are a bother

Now he has to go

Now people are terrorized

Yet –

I asked you all for help

I was the first caught in his line of fire

and you all looked away

Bi-polar

Schizophrenia

Disorders

Hidden within a family

Secret weapons aimed against me

Used to stab me in the back

They now learn the lesson

That daggers aimed

find their way back…

Bad things happen

because

people

stand by

and

watch in silence…

 

 

FOOD FOR THOUGHT…

“If a society permits one portion of its citizenry to be menaced or destroyed,

then,

very soon,

no one in that society is safe.

The forces thus released in the people can never be held in check,

but run their devouring course,

destroying the very foundations which it was imagined they would save.

~

But we are unbelievably ignorant concerning what goes on in our country–

to say nothing of what goes on in the rest of the world–

and appear to have become too timid to question what we are told.

Our failure to trust one another deeply enough to be able to talk to one another has become so great

that people with these questions in their hearts do not speak them;

our opulence is so pervasive that people who are afraid to lose whatever they think they have

persuade themselves of the truth of a lie,

and help disseminate it;

and God help the innocent here,

that man or woman who simply wants to love, and be loved.

Unless this would-be lover is able to replace his or her backbone with a steel rod,

he or she is doomed.

This is no place for love.

I know that I am now expected to make a bow in the direction of those millions of unremarked,

happy marriages all over America,

but I am unable honestly to do so because I find nothing whatever in our moral and social climate–

and I am now thinking particularly of the state of our children–

to bear witness to their existence.

I suspect that when we refer to these happy and so marvelously invisible people,

we are simply being nostalgic concerning the happy,

simple,

God-fearing life which we imagine ourselves once to have lived.

In any case,

wherever love is found,

it unfailingly makes itself felt in the individual,

the personal authority of the individual.

Judged by this standard,

we are a loveless nation.

The best that can be said is that some of us are struggling.

And what we are struggling against is that death in the heart which leads not only to the shedding of blood,

but which reduces human beings to corpses while they live.”                  

― James Baldwin, nothing personal

On the Ocean… K’Jon…

Man,
The moment I been waiting on
And my soul is over flowing
With anxieties and expectations
I’m full of desires
I just want it so bad
You know
And it just seem so real
It’s right there
I just want reach out and touch it
Before it all disappears

Sometimes
It feels like
Like everything
Is passin’ me by
Every now and then
It feels like (feels like)
My ship has gone and sailed away
But I
I gotta be strong (gotta be strong)
Gotta hold on
It won’t be too long

Now the tide is coming near
I see the waves flowing
Out there on the ocean
I know my ship is coming in
Just pass the horizon
And right where the sky ends
Cause out there on the ocean
Know my ship is coming in
So don’t leave me hanging
I’ve been waiting too long
For this moment
My ship has finally come

I would travel to the seven seas
(I will even go)
I will even go wherever the wind blows me
(I’ll do anything)
I’ll do anything to find my destiny
It’s like fightin’ with gravity
And it’s bringin’ me down
If this world is really round then tell me how
It took so long for you to come around

Now the tide is coming near
I see the waves flowing
Out there on the ocean
I know my ship is coming in (coming in baby)
Just pass the horizon
And right where the sky ends
Cause out there on the ocean
Know my ship is coming in
So don’t leave me hanging
   I’ve been waiting too long  

For this moment

My ship has finally come

Finally you come (around)
Around, around
I said finally baby

Finally you come (around)
Around, around

Finally you come around, come around baby

Finally you
Finally you come

Said finally you come around (around)

Now the tide is coming near (now the tide is coming in)
I see the waves flowing
Out there on the ocean
I know my ship is coming in (and I know my ship is coming in baby)
Just pass the horizon
(And where) And right where the sky ends
Cause out there on the ocean
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, is coming in
Been waiting too long
But this moment
My ship has finally come

Finally you come (around)
Around, around 

Let Go…

The time has come 

4 me to let go

of all the pain

all the hurt

all of it 

it’s time to let go

As much as it hurts

to close the door

I value my Peace of Mind more

no more, no more, NO MORE… 

it’s time 4 me to let go

EYE CEE U

It’s all a facade

It’s all for show

It’s time 4 me to let go

I made it this far without you

and will continue on without you

just time 4 me to let go…

did u just ask me why?

I’m tired of your games 

and your lies

your inability to apologize

did you really have to ask me why?…

that proves it right there

all of these words you did not hear

yes… It’s time to let go!

 

MASTER TEACHERS…

(Dreams, dreams, dreams)

I am known to stay awake
(A beautiful world I’m trying to find)
A beautiful world I’m trying to find
(A beautiful world, I’m trying to find)
I’ve been in search of myself
(A beautiful world) a beautiful world
It’s just too hard for me to find
(Dreams, dreams)
Said it’s just too hard for me to find
(Dreams, dreams)
I am in the search of something new
(A beautiful world I’m trying to find)
Searchin’ me,
Searching inside of you
And that’s fo’ real

What if it were no niggas
Only master teachers?
I stay woke (Dreams dreams)
What if there was no niggas
Only master teachers?
I stay woke (Dreams dreams)
What if it was no niggas only master teachers now?
I stay woke (Dreams dreams)
(What if there was no niggas only master teachers now?)
I stay woke (Dreams dreams)

Even if yo baby ain’t got no money
To support ya baby, you
(I stay woke)
Even when the preacher tell you some lies
And cheatin’ on ya mama, you stay woke
(I stay woke)
Even though you go through struggle and strife
To keep a healthy life, I stay woke
(I stay woke)
Everybody knows a black or white, there’s
Creatures in every shape and size
(I stay woke)

Everybody
(I stay woke)
Everybody, stay
(I stay woke)
Get everybody
(I stay woke)
Everybody body baby
(A beautiful world, a beautiful world)(Dreams, dreams)
(A beautiful world, a beautiful world)(Dreams, dreams)
(A beautiful world, a beautiful world) I’m trying to find
(A beautiful world, a beautiful world) I’m trying to find
(A beautiful world, a beautiful world) I’m trying to find

I have lone to stay awake
A beautiful world I’m trying to find
(A beautiful world I’m trying to find)
See, I am in search of myself
(A beautiful world, I’m trying to find)
Ooh it’s just too hard for me to find
(A beautiful world, a beautiful world)
Said it just too hard for me to find
(Dreams, dreams, dreams)
Cause I’m in the search of something new
(A beautiful world I’m trying to find)
Search inside me
Searching inside you
And that’s the trill

What if there was no niggas
Only master teachers?
(I stay woke)
What if there was no niggas
Only master teacher?
I stay woke)
What if there was no niggas
Only master teachers now?
(I stay woke)
What if there was no niggas
Only master teacher?
(I stay woke)
No, what if there was no niggas
Only master teachers?

What if there was no niggas
Only master teachers now

Teach us, teach us teach us [fade]

What if there was no niggas only master teachers now [fade]

I stay woke [fade]

I stay woke
Mmmm, hey
I stay woke

One, two
One, two, three, four

Baby sleepy time
To put her down now
I’ll be standin’ round
Till the sun down

I stay woke
I stay woke
I stay woke
I stay woke

Congregation nod they head
And say amen
The deacon fell asleep again and

I stay woke
But I stay woke
I stay woke
I stay woke

Lovers holding hands
And falling deep in love
And sleeping and
Passing conversation

Ooh, I stay woke
I stay woke
I stay woke
I stay woke

Pretty rings and pretty thieves
With shiny lights and little
Pieces of tomorrow

I stay woke
I stay woke
I stay woke
I stay woke

Oh ah, oh ah
I stay woke
Oh ah, oh ah
I stay woke
Oh ah, oh ah
I stay
Oh ah, oh ah
Oh I stay
Oh ah, oh ah
Oh ah, oh ah

Baby sleepy time
To put her down and
I’ll be standin’ round
Until sun down, hey

Oh ah, oh ah
Oh ah, oh ah
Oh, oh, oh
(Oh ah, oh ah)
I stay woke
(Oh ah, oh ah)
Mmmm stay woke
(Oh ah, oh ah)
I stay
(Oh ah, oh ah)
I stay woke, I
(Oh ah, oh ah)
I stay woke, yes I do
(Oh ah, oh ah)
I stay woke
(Oh ah, oh ah)
Mmmm, mmm yea
(Oh ah, oh ah)
Stay woke
(Oh ah, oh ah)
I stay woke

A HEAVY HEART…

trayvon

I POSTED THIS ON FACEBOOK EARLIER THIS EVENING AFTER I FOUND OUT ABOUT THE ZIMMERMAN VERDICT:

As I’m writing this post

I’m looking at the picture of me and my SUN, my Prince, DJ.

My baby who has the heart of his Mother and soul of his Father…

There are no words that can express how I feel right now.

All I can do is just look at my baby’s face…

I can’t even imagine….

what I do know is that moving forward,

I am even MORE dedicated to making sure things change

for my people here in this fuckin’ country.

I’m tired of the disrespect,

the racism,

the inequality,

the injustice – everything!!!

I’m not buying none of their shit anymore.

If my people don’t make it, I don’t need it!!!

Let them be the ones breaking their necks trying to keep up with the Joneses…

I don’t have time for that.

Shit!… I never did!

And even more so now!…

I don’t want to live through the rest of my life always worried about my

SUN

growing up in this world

and

having his natrual born essense changed because of the

supidity,

jealousy,

and

ignorance of our enemies…

I have had enough of this…

Anyone else tired of this shit happeneing to us,

tired of seeing our communities going to shit,

tired of this whole fucked up and oppressive system…

Stop buying their shit… PERIOD… Hotep!

PEACE TO ALL THE GODS AND EARTHS!!!…

THE ANCIENT MYSTERY SYSTEM…

MAAT

 

 THE MYSTERY SYSTEM

THROUGH THE PROCESS OF INITIATION

ELEVATED THE SOUL FROM A MATERIAL, SENSUAL, AND PURELY HUMAN LIFE

TO A CELESTIAL COMMUNION WITH THE GODS.

BY INCULCATING IN THE INTIATES THE PRACTICES OF VIRTUE

THE MYSTERIES PROVIDED FOR MAN

THE ENJOYMENT OF TRUE AND PROPER HAPPINESS DURING HIS EARTHLY LIFE.

INITIATES WERE TAUGHT THE IMMORTALITY OF THE SOUL 

AND

THE INFLEXIBLE LAWS OF DIVINE JUSTICE

AND

GREAT MORAL PRECEPTS WERE MADE KNOWN NOT ONLY TO THE INITIATES

BUT

ALSO THE PROFANE.

THE MYSTERIES POINTED OUT TO MEN

THE WAY TO LIVE BETTER 

AND

THE WAY TO DIE HAPPIER…

BY SEEKING TO PURIFY THE SOUL 

AND

HOLDING THAT THE TRUE HOME OF THE SOUL IS IN THE HIGHER SPHERE –

THE EARTH IS A PLACE OF EXILE

AND

THAT TO RETURN TO ITS BIRTHPALCE,

THE SOUL MUST FREE ITSELF FROM THE PASSIONS AND HINDERANCES OF THE SENSES. 

THE MYSTERIES TAUGHT MAN HOW TO ATTAIN THE DOMINION OF THE SOUL

WHICH WAS ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY. 

~

PEACE TO ALL THE GODS AND EARTHS!!!

TRU EARTHs HEART…

It was unexpected 

though I don’t regret it

I had a meeting of the minds 

Intellectually stimulating beyond anything ever physical – 

confuses me

my heart right now longs for another God

but

this here is different

a meeting of the minds

spirtual exctasy 

atoms exploding 

spiritual excasty

I’m nervous and scared 

the ol’ God showed me what I want … and now…

here He is before me… 

a meeting of the minds

already on the same page –

longing for what I know will be more than a meeting

more than a meeting of the minds

it’s inevitable – 

or will we both be surprised

that

this time around 

we do things right 

even despite

us both having a hard time following the rules 

yeah… that’s my TRUth too. 

This was so….  Unexpected.

And I truly can’t help it

my brain is on fire… 

I’ve never felt this way before

But –

this is how EYE feel

yes, i am well aware

He may not SEE me in that LIGHT…

or maybe

He does and He’s just as scared… 

I hate this – all of this – 

feeling like I’m high-school

butterflies

well actually stomach turning

so nervous so scared

heart racing 

I hate this …lol… 

no I don’t…lol…

I appreciate every chance I get to experience love…

it keeps me young

having the ability to let old wounds heal

having the ability to see others for themselves

not through the lens of my past

I like falling in love

making connections that are real for that moment and purpose in time…